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| silex Member 475 Posts 12/09 | Hi everyone. Happy 4th of July to all of you. I hope you have a wonderful holiday. I wanted to come on and say first off thank you. I appreciate the fact all of you have been supportive of myself, my work, my career. I tell everyone I have the best fans and I love them to death. It's part of the reason I do this and love it as I do. It also means the world to me that the movies I've directed, written, or worked on have been highly pleasing for the fans. It's all I want. Ok. Let's get down to the post. At first I was shocked just like many of you. Dan did tell me and everyone else of course before the news was announced here and made public. We talked about it and yes I did voice many of the concerns for myself and the future as many of you are posting here. Everyone knows how much I love GFF and what my goals and hopes are for my career and future with GFF. In no way is this going to change my future. Truth is I would have released another movie or two recently but the last few months I did need to take some time off. I still do the Vaults which I love doing btw. As many of you know if you watch our membership shows, in late March when Dan and I were in Florida filming my dog died. A dog I had since college. I found out days before we left he had cancer and had an emergency surgery. They thought he'd make it at least 1 month, most 6. When we were filming, I got the message he was going to go any minute. I had to make the decision to tell my mom to put him down. Not only this, my kid was with her and this was the first time she lost a pet. As you can imagine, my heart was pretty broken. Never being away from my kid when she cried or dealt with an event like that. Also not being there for my mom. I apologized to her and told her I'm sorry I couldn't come home and be there to hold her. My mom has always been supporting of my work, my dedication to it and GFF, along with being a single parent and raising mine all on my own. Sadly, there was nothing I could do and as much as it hurt, I wanted and needed to stay in Florida with Dan and the girls. Some of these women are family to me. Friends. We laugh, cry, grow together. When I got word my dog was gone, I told Dan I needed an hour to myself. I needed to cry and I didn't want to do that around the girls. Not on set, not on filming days. That's just the professional I am and I know it would distract the talent. I went outside to cry alone and sob. As I was doing this Deauxma came outside. She sat behind me on the chair, she wrapped her arms around me, and whispered to me how sorry she was and that it was ok to cry. I pretty much lost it at this point and we cried. We talked about some very personal and sad moments in our lives which hopefully one day have and will make us stronger as humans. It was a surreal moment and I'll love her forever for that. She kept me together that week and we bonded forever that trip. The girls and Dan kept me together. He would come up to me and hug me randomly. They hugged me non stop, brought me flowers, and Brandi Love slept in my room with me. All that being said I'm glad I stayed. My mom and kid bonded and when I came home I had the time to take to spend with my family grieving and such. My dog was cremated and the entire process was extremely difficult for my mom. She still cries randomly daily. Pets are like our children. A loss is like losing a loved one. After I returned home, my mom found out she was ill. I wasn't expecting that. Then my car broke down. New transmission. They had my car for over 2 weeks, over 3000 dollars. When I picked it up, one side of my car was keyed and it wasn't fixed right. I'm currently dealing with corporate which baffles me. This happens to be the second time I've had to get a new transmission rebuilt for my car. That's almost 7800 just in transmission alone. :/ Oh, did I mention I had to do taxes when I got home. Not just one year either. Blah. Weeee. Then a week later it broke down again. Another 900. Then after weeks of not having it again, a spring in the emergency brake broke which caused my entire brake system in my car to fail so as you can imagine another 1230. Yea, not good for me. Especially not working as much or having a vehicle. I got it fixed and thankfully I have it now and all it well. Good news is I have a new car under my hood that should last a very long time. On top of that, June is always the craziest time for me. After mothers day, its insane until the end of June. Last few weeks of school, kids first talent show, talent show auditions, eye appointments, 10year old birthday, my mothers birthday, my kids dads birthday, his mothers birthday, fathers day, last day of school..... Do I need to go on. Lol. So as you can see the last 2-3 months have been crazy. Of course I'm on top of the Vaults and I did go with Dan to San Fran to film. I'll always travel with Dan when he needs me or if I'm going to film something. We work really hard when we travel but we get a lot of really good work done together. I love traveling for work honestly. I could do it to no end. Yes, when I heard this I was worried. Would I still be directing my stuff, would Dan still be shooting, the crew, the future. Every little possible thing ran across my brain. We talked about it. Dan has never told me no to a project or I couldn't film. I'm still going to be doing LST which I want to shoot the next one ASAP. I'm also trying to coordinate schedules with the entire main cast of my 2 Mommies Series so we can shoot a few movies for the series here shortly. I will say 1 is almost finished, I just need one more thing to complete it. We also have done work on 2-3. So between LST 2, which is going to be amazing btw, and 2 Mommies I should be pretty busy this summer. Yay!!! I've still been doing lots of writing in the meantime and I'm going to go back to performing more scenes. I did do one recently with Hana Black which was phenominal. Other than her I haven't been doing much filming the last few months. Sometimes you need to focus and handle other stuff. Believe me I'd love to film and fuck all the time. Sucks when you don't have a car. Downside is I'm majorly sex deprived right now and I need about 50 orgasms. I'm not going anywhere. I'm still a part of GFF. I'm still directing for us, writing, producing the Vault, performing scenes, and I plan to do a lot more in the future. Dan has welcomed any idea I've had so far and he knows whatever I do for GFF or bring to him I'm going to out my whole heart into. He knows how dedicated I am to my work, GFF, my name, and what I put out into the world. I don't want to be a part of GG, I want to change it. I want to make some form of a difference at the end of the day. In the future I hope to do many more movies with and for Dan and all of you. I don't think that's going to change. The last few months I've just slowed down working to take care of other areas in my life. Now I feel good as new and I have all summer alone to work, write, play. Lastly, I'll leave this post on another positive note. I've been working on 2 things. Brewing if you will. 2 very important things!! If all goes to plan sometime in the near future I'll be dropping a few hints for you guys. I really hope it pans out because if it does, wow! All I'm going to say. Of course, I would probably make the announcement first on our weekly membership show that I host called 'The Vault'. If you haven't seen the show you should sign up on the membership site ASAP! Hehe |
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