i knew before getting my boob job some people would have mixed feelings. but i did it because all my life i thought was going to have large breasts because of my moms size. but as i grew older i wondered why my sister was so flat and why i wasn't getting any bigger. with much disappointment i was told at age 17 that my moms breasts weren't her own. i was devastated but then went on a mission to find a way of getting mine done. finally i did them and i'm happier than ever, my clothes fit a lot better and i feel sexier than ever. thats all that matters...my confidence
those pictures are only a week old..if that and my boobs are 7 weeks old. so yes they still need time to settle...don't worry
i shot my first scene back with metro yesturday, i believe its in their "new cummers" series. it was amazing and reminded me of everything i loved that i had left behind. i'm here to stay and no one can take that away from me. i got rid of some old baggage. thank god!
i believe you may be seeing me signing for zero tolerance at the vegas show so be ready! hehehe
I've seen Teen Dreams with Eva and Teagan in it and I thought Eva's scene was awesome along with Teagan and Nadia Styles but your scene was the best coz it looked like you are really into the sucking and the fucking with those 2 guys. I think you're one of the best in giving BJ among the pornstars today with hot deepthroat also. When was this movie shot?
"I think you're one of the best in giving BJ among the pornstars today with hot deepthroat also. "
I agree. The second scene I saw Eva in was "Teens Revealed 3" and she was working with Sean Michaels and another girl. I remember just being blown away by the bj sequence, with this thought popping into my mind: "Holy shit! That little thing just about deepthroated Sean Michaels!" I've said in several of my reviews, but Eva, in appearance and energy, reminds me considerably of Ashley Blue.
Eva, you are so fun to watch! Wow, you're back with more confidence and less baggage? That's amazing considering few girls have projected a greater sense of enjoyment and enthusiasm than you. Keep smiling in your scenes and I'll keep watching.
i'm sorry to say but that extra baggage that i got rid of ended up tragically... this mourning i found out that my boyfriend had killed himself because i left him on saturday. im still in shock and i don't want to believe that i have cause so much pain in his life...i'm scared now because i know he really is gone and i can't do anything to change this. i have felt a pain in my veins and in my heart that i hope none of you will have to feel. but unfortunately i'm left to feel this anguish and sorrow that my other half is gone and i will never be able to make love to him, breathe his air, or touch his skin ever again...i don't mean to be a bummer but i just wanted to share this with you guys because this is the only thing that is running through my mind....my poor baby...
i'm sorry...i still don't know what to say to myself i'm just devastated. my shadow is gone and i stand here alone. i dont know what to do except stand here and look at his pictures and hug his pillow so tight just to smell his body as if he were here next to me. but then i realize that i will never have him next to me...ever! which brings me to tears. now when i cry i barely have any tears because my tear drops have been dried out. fuck! i hate what has happened to me...when im trying so hard to focus on one thing, something so heart breaking takes you away from everthing and you can only think of the pain in your heart. so painful that you literally are sick to your stomach. thats what i hate. my love is now gone. hes left me!
Very sorry to hear this, but the truth is when someone takes their own life, it is RARELY just the fault of one person. There were probably many other things going on negatively in his life.
That isn't to say you shouldn't feel sad by this, just that you shouldn't blame yourself.
he had a lot of problems but me starting porn again only made it worse. its still so unreal that he won't be calling me anymore wondering when i'll be home so he can have dinner ready. it hurts to know that i will never be able to feel his body next to mine. it unbelieveable, i refuse to believe that i will never be able to taste him again. i can't believe that he had to take himself away from me god damnit! why did he have to leave me!
Eva, please stay strong through your time of mourning and I hope you're able to find comfort from those that love you. I'm sure many people here at this forum are here to help you through this.
Mike, you complimenting her new boobs after the last few posts seems a little off color. Of course, I'm the new guy here. I'm sure you meant it with the best of intentions.
thank you guys for caring. it means a lot! but each day without him is harder and harder to live. every mourning its harder to open my eyes in fear that i have to come back to this horrible reality. his parents are making this even harder on me. they won't even let me go to his funeral. i am lost. i have driven 1500 mile since monday trying to find a place of peace. but now i find myself in the same position as he was. disturbed. i can't find peace anywhere. i can't sleep, eat, i constantly feel like i am about to have an anxiety attack. my love is gone and i can't get it back. dan, my boyfriend, always carried my heart in his pocket and now he has brought it up there with him. this still seems so unreal to me.
Eva, it is hard to know what to say at a time like this except I'm so sorry for the pain you are feeling. I lost my first wife in a tragic accident when she was just 27 so I know that your heart hurts in a way you would have never thought possible and it seems like it will hurt forever. I can tell you from experience that there will come a day when you will heal and you will laugh again. There will come a day when you can think of him, remember him, and not cry. I know that right now it feels like you will cry forever but that's not how life works. You will grieve, (and try to not spend time alone, let the people who care about you and love you help you through this) and then you will grieve less and then one day you will go all day without crying. Please resist the temptation to blame yourself, it is not your fault. If there is anything I can do or if you want to talk, please call me. If you don't have my cell number anymore, call me at Red Light or e-mail me at jakemalone@rldv.com.
My Heart Felt Sorrow for you Eva May you find the Strength to find your way threw this most tragic time in your life Know that if u need someone to talk to i am a email away !
When going through tragedy, sometimes it helps to get your mind off of things anyway you can. Just try not to think about it for every second, although I know it can be tough. Go to the movies, dinner with friends, anything.
Like someone else said, spend time with friends and family as much as you can and don't worry about your career right now. I am sure there will always be a place for you there.
thanks you guys it really does mean a lot! in the past two weeks i have gone through a journey that is hard to put to words... all i know is that i have seen the darkest and i am ready to see the light. i have had my nervous breakdown and reached the lowest i will ever allow myself to be.
there is a reason why he took his life... he wanted me to do my best to suceed in porn even though he could not live here on earth to see it.
i can't let myself go to waste. he didn't want to keep me from this anymore than he already had. i hate that he could not be okay with it but i except why he wasn't... he wanted me to be only his.
i now know what i need to do...he did not die for nothing. i will do my best in every scene i shoot in hopes that i can fulfill my dreams... just like he wanted me to do.
i shot my first b/g scene back with digital playground today and it was amazing. i felt like i was on a whole new level of performing, a new energy i had waiting inside...ready to erupt and boy did it! i feel revitalized and ready to make him proud.
Good god mama,your enthusiasm and dedication sound like a porn director's DREAM!If only you could bottle that attitude,put it in a hot air balloon,and release it over Porn Valley!
Your scenes are already charged with your positive energy,can't wait to see the new stuff!!!!!!
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Posted - Nov 21 2004 : 7:43AM
That's it! I'm calling bullshit! This is not Eva Angelina. This is pure satire. You had me going, whoever you are, but I'm laughing my ass off. Great material! Great! You should be nominated for something....
what the fuck are you talking about!?! sorry to break it to ya...but i am eva and this is the shit i have to deal with. call bullshit all you want but you are a fucking idiot for thinking you know any better
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5470 Posts 8/03
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 12:24AM
***Objectional material deleted to give "Eva" the benefit of the doubt***
If it is her, then it certainly isn't the nicest thing to post.
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"Puff Daddy is crap." - Keith Richards 320 Posts 7/04
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 1:13AM
there is a reason why he took his life... he wanted me to do my best to suceed in porn even though he could not live here on earth to see it.
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I don't consider myself a cold person, and it's not that I'm not sympathetic to what Eva may be going through, but I sort of get where nietzsche is coming from.
Uh, yeah. Moving on...
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nietzsche Deactivated User
5470 Posts 8/03
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 8:13AM
Granted. Asshole material deleted. I still think it's a hoax. If anyone can verify it, I'll offer an official apology.
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Ivor Biggun Deactivated User
99 Posts 6/04
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 5:11PM
Me too...
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99 Posts 6/04
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 5:55PM
I didn't get to see what nietzsche posted, but I gather it was pretty harsh. It's interesting how different people view this situation. I find myself reaching opposite conclusions to you, jagerclown.
If this isn't her, then I would be congratulating "Eva" for fooling so many with a wonderfully dark satire. (Likewise if it is actually Eva, but the story isn't true.)
If it is her and it's all true then, well knowing the way this board is moderated, I'd get kicked off if I dared to say what I really think.
We have derailed into the surreal here. The question seems to be whether or not we were lead here by a darkly comedic individual or if Eva truly was played a rotten cosmic joke and she is dealing with it the only way she knows how.
I will say, that her reply about her doing porn cause that's what he would want seeems to be insane and that's why it appears to be phony. If it's real, then she appears to be a sandwich short of a picnic.
This thread is a post or two away from being locked. Bring it back on topic or say goodnight Gracie.
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Ivor Biggun Deactivated User
99 Posts 6/04
Posted - Nov 22 2004 : 9:15PM
If you want to lock it then you have the power. Why must you use the phony excuse of claiming it as "off-topic", when it quite clearly is still on topic, the topic at hand being Eva Angelina?
i recieved an email from luke ford asking me to call him to confirm that i am eva. he will be recieving a call from me tomorrow mourning. and you will know the truth.
