Gauge writes "OK OK, OK.... I deserve it... I deserve everyone being mad at me for not keeping in touch and updating my OWN website... you're all right!!!!
I've been getting hundreds of e-mails from my fans.. all asking why I haven't been updating my website.
Well, to be honest, a lots been going on in my life. I've had to take some time off to reflect and my career, my future and what I want to do.
I think one of my biggest mistakes was rushing my website to the net.
I love my site, and I'm 1,000,000% committed to it, and to my fans. BUT, I had my priorities all mixed up.
As many of you know, I had that big drama of being on house arrest...... and that's when my website was built.
Then when I got off house arrest and came back to California, I had no money. SO, I got right back into films to start paying off all the debts I've had hanging over me.
Many of you have read on gossip sites and newsgroups that I'm going to start doing personal appearances on my Live Chat, and I want to and am going to..... but again I got screwed over by someone who was suppose to be my friend. See, back in Arkansas I have this friend named Jeff. I thought he was my best friend. When I was in Arkansas on house arrest he was really cool to me and all, and when I came off house arrest I bolted for CA. with only the clothes on my back.
GoliathFilms sent me this way cool 2.0GHz computer with a 21 inch monitor for my website. So, after a few weeks of being back in CA. I called Jeff and asked him to send me my computer (by the way Jeff's really into computers). So, a few weeks go by, then a month, and nothing. Now it's been like 3 months, and no computer. SO, my webmaster finally tracked Jeff down by e-mail. and guess what??????? He says "While Gauge was here in Arkansas I spent money on her and she owes me, so I'm keeping the computer and monitor as payment until she pays me back". Some friend huh. It's the same old story!!! If I let him get in my pants, then we'd be friends. But since I didn't let him in my pants, we're not friends and all the little favors he did for me while I was on house arrest weren't done out of friendship - a running tab was being kept. So, I now have to file criminal charges against someone I thought was my friend. My faith in people keeps taking body shots. That's why I love getting so much positive e-mail from my fans, that keeps me going.
See, I've really grown up over the last year. I'm not just some irresponsible kid anymore. I take time to sit back and think about things.
SO, I set my priorities straight, and the first thing I've had to do is get the biggest elephant off my back - bills.
The worst part is, 70% of the bills don't belong to me. If you all remember, I was with Mojo, and then I dumped him for being such a loser.
Well, now I'm stuck will bills that he put in my name, or bills that are being dumped on me because they can't find him. Plus, I just learned that I unfairly accused Extreme Associates of screwing me out of a lot of cash for movies, because Mojo took those checks and cashed them for himself.
I've had to pay his debts, and I even had to go to CRIMINAL COURT recently because of shit he brought upon me. These are all things that I've avoided for almost 2 years, but now I've tackled them head on, and I'm glad to finally say that they are behind me.
Over the last 2 months I've shot a lot of movies, shot a lot of content and got more involved in the backend running of this website. If you're a member of my site, you'll notice that we added 120 Live Video Feeds that are available 24 hours a day. BUT, the real reason for the delay is this.
My webmaster is one of the greatest designers I know, and he builds stuff that blows my mind away. He's building a new content site for GoliathFilms.com called GoliathsGate.com - and when I saw this layout and design I told him "I WANT THAT". So, here's the deal.
Once the GoliathsGate site is completed, they are going to tear my site down and re-build it using that design and layout - but making it all about me.
It will have a better interface, better text layouts and make it more personal from me to you fans. PLUS, the backend will be installed on the new computer they're sending me so I can update everything, including pictures and video clips, all by myself. AND, GoliathFilms.com just struck a deal with the best photographer I've ever shot for - Scott Del Amo. And they're creating a series of exclusive content based websites, of which I am an investor, part owner and spokesperson. So, expect to see that coming soon too. All in all it means one thing. I'm finally going to get my act together with this website. xxxGauge.com is going to basically start over. When it re-launches it will have over 10,000 pictures of me, and with Scott Del Amo as my exclusive photographer I can upload NEW content EVERY WEEK.... as well as video. PLUS, I'll be able to do custom photo shoots from requests of my members an custom videos. My Live Chat will be 100% live at least 3 days a week, plus all the Live Feeds I have right now running. And we're going to have content libraries of over 200,000 pictures and all my movies for sale.
So, to all my existing members...... hang in there because the new site is going to be $23.95 per month and anyone who's already a member before the site re-launch will be charged the existing membership fee of $19.95 per month only. I promise all of you I won't flake on you. I'm sorry for not doing more, but I can guarantee you, I will put all my energies into my website and my fans. This time, I'm doing it my way, I'm involved, I have a clear mind, I have put all my problems in the past, and I have a clear understanding of what it takes to make this site successful.
Before I go for now.. I want to thank some people for their love and support through all of this: Brian M (my biggest fan), Lauren C (who runs my Yahoo club), Jason (he knows who he is), Gene at GoliathFilms for being such an incredible programmer, Roger Pipe over at RogReview.com (look for me in a RogRules T-Shirt soon) and of course Keith ~ nothing more can be said!!!!
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