I have been looking for an American film labeled as softcore erotica for quite some time now. I remember seeing it somewhere between 1997 and 2002. (I saw it on Dutch television on a channel called RTL5 or Veronica I think). As far as I remember it looked like it was made somewhere in the 90's, so it musn't have been that old when it was broadcasted.
I remember the story being about a "children's book writer" (male) with a writer's block. I don't remember the plot that well, so I guess it didn't really show in the movie that much. The sex scenes were pretty hard for films shown on tv at the time. I remember certain sex scenes which I will describe later in this post. All in all the film also seemed very dramatic, and I remember vaguely about the main character dying or something. (It's a long time ago, please excuse my vagueness).
As far as I remember some of the sex scenes:
1) I remember the main character sitting in a bar and he gets flirted by a woman (not sure if it was the waitress or not). Eventually they wind up having sex in the bathroom (think standing from behind) while all of a sudden the husband of the waitress/temptress walks in. He says teasingly "continue" but after a while hits the main character. Unfortunately I don't remember much more of it.
2) I also remember a woman (dark, short hair, pale skin) calling the main character if he could come over because she is feeling down. (Don't remember if they were ex lovers, but it was something like that). She tells him about her feelings towards him but he says he doesn't want anything from her. She starts to cry and he comforts her, ending up having pretty hard sex on the couch and floor. Here I remember a white couch and white rug on the floor with a glass tabel on the rug.
3) The third thing I remember is that the main character meets this woman somewhere in the movie, and sometime they agree to meet and have sex on a picknick blanket. The music is very soft (I think to recall) and I think there was something with this woman crying as well.
Somehow this film always stayed with me and I would -really- like to see it again, or be able to see parts of it again. Hopefully my description is not too vague and this will ring some bells by people.
Thanks.