Hannah, if it's any consolation (though I doubt it will be) I still don't know what the fuck I wanna do with my life. I would say not to worry too much about it as you are a smart girl with many talents beyond sucking and fucking. Hell, I'd suggest pursuing your singing and/or writing if the desire is there. Sure, it may take more than talent to "make it" in such areas, but you never know, that "break" might be there waiting for you. And no one will give a fuck about your porn career. Sorry if this all sounds flippant because I do not mean it like that. I just get the feeling that someone with your personality and intelligence will end up finding what she wants in the long run.
I know. I just have been under pressure. I think I am the only one pressuring myself. I need answers. I feel like where I am right now is not good enough... I need to push something further.. I have all my core classes out of the way and now it's time to make some dec sons.. and I don't like any of the choices. I have no solutions and I think I am not asking the right questions. Hannah West ;)
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Posted - Jan 14 2008 : 3:43PM
What are you majoring in, anyway? If you don't mind me asking. Can you see yourself staying in this industry for a long time, and Pursuing other careers in it like production and direction? Or if you're just in it for some quick and good money while you finish college, and then start another career, that's fine too.
I'll push this industry as far as I can. Directing is an option but many people in the industry bullshit and I never know who good resources are. It's not about quick money.. but it's also not about it becoming a career.. its an option. I need plan A, B, and C. As far as my major.. man.. it has been changed a lot. That's the problem right now.. Hannah West ;)
Hi Hannah, just watched your scene in Face Fucking Inc 3, which I thought was excellent. I'm a big fan of Joey Silvera and I'd love to see you in one of his Service Animals or Hellcats series. I'm also looking forward to your forthcoming tranny scene with him :) Back to your scene which I was most impressed with. This was the first of your scenes I'd had the pleasure to watch and you certainly came across very well. I thought you were very attractive and articulate and I'll most definitely be checking out some of your other scenes particularly your g/g b/g/g scenes (I've also ordered your scene with Brooke Haven). I wish you all the best in the New Year! :)
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Posted - Jan 14 2008 : 6:07PM
the thread was locked for a reason. broken records are not welcome. -steph Edited by - Steph on 1/14/2008 6:37:09 PM
Hannah, getting back on-topic here, try not to put too much pressure on yourself, you'll burn yourself out that way. (I know, sometimes easier said than done for us work-a-holic/perfectionist types). The fact is, at this point, you do have a lot of options, and that can be overwhelming. But, at the same time, it can be a good thing. The best advice I can give is not to be in too much of a hurry. And if you find you've made the wrong choice at some point, it's not too late to make another choice that will be more fitting in getting you where you want to be. I know this is all very general, but I believe it to be true. In any case, best of luck with everything! I think you'll succeed no matter what choice(s) you make.
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Posted - Jan 15 2008 : 3:07AM
Yup. You set your goals and cross your fingers that everything will go according to plan. But who knows what hand life will deal you? Just don't go spending a bunch of money and time until you have a better idea about what you really want out of life and how college can help you achieve that if it can at all.
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Posted - Jan 15 2008 : 11:44AM
Hannah I changed my major plenty of times before settling on psychology and minoring in sociology. Don't pressure yourself. Take elective courses in things you are interested in and you will settle on something. Yes college was tough but boy did I have a blast. Remember the trick to carrying on is to not get carried away. "Censorship is the first step towards dictatorship !" Honest Ed
Sigh. Every input is appreciated. Know what my fourtane cookie said last night.. (this is fucked up but true) "Do not seek so much to find the answer as much to understand the question better." The odds are against me y'all. HA. Hannah West ;)
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Posted - Jan 15 2008 : 2:52PM
Obey the fortune cookie for it is wise. You may think the odds are against you but time is definitely on your side. You're only 20. You have plenty of time to sample different things until you get a better idea of what you want to accomplish with your life. An option I would suggest is to take the money you are earning now and learn how to make it into more money. Let it grow and when you have decided where your future lies, it will be there for you. Don't do all these films and have nothing to show for it in five years.
Hannah, I'm sorry to hear about your somewhat existential crises of your life and where you are going. I'm sad to say, it doesn't get much easier. I am those 10 extra years you mentioned (me - 31) and in some ways, i guess I'm better off than others. I at least know what I want to do, or the arena that I want to work in. Still, I am very much not where I hoped I'd be at this point and have a long trek to go before I am. That is just life. It's a journey and maybe one day you'll make it to your destination. I do think it's smart that you are self-aware enough to contemplate these things now. Be pro-active. Make your plan. It might change, but if you know where you're headed, then you know enough to be able to change things when need be. Best of luck and I hope you continue to enjoy the adventures you're on now.
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Posted - Jan 15 2008 : 10:09PM
Just remember the line from O Brother where art thou. Do... not.... seek.... the .... treasure. And then go seek it anyway. "Censorship is the first step towards dictatorship !" Honest Ed
I think I just need to go with the flow and stop applying so much pressure. Recently, I was connected with a strong resource who I think will have a good influence for my porn career and personal life. I will be returning to cali this sunday for the 6th time I think. Maybe 7th. Major changes are coming and I will be announcing them soon. I'm very excited and feel renewed about my entire situation. how do you guys feel about watching a girl fuck herself with random household objects?
Hannah West ;) Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 1/16/2008 6:22:04 PM Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 1/16/2008 8:24:57 PM
Hannah, I'm for it. Why are there no hot female presidential candidates who are running on such a platform? And "going with the flow" is a good philosophy I think. Keep plugging away, but not to the point that you wear your plugger out.
I have had pleanty of random guys on film.. ha.. I think you can't fuck yourself with random objects.. we at least some companies do not support the idea.. which lead me to belive it couldn't be done.. and then you get scene where chicks are popping golf balls out of their ass. I wonder if it is something that could be done for my site. It would def bring back some desperate childhood memories. I should have known somehting was different about me then. HA. Hannah West ;)
I have to say that I don't find the use of dildos, strap-ons and other random objects etc hot at all. That's just my personal preference though. If I'm watching a g/g scene as soon as the toys come out I lose interest. Give me fingers and tongues any day! :)
Dildos bore me too unless I'm alone.. but I'd like to film myself with hairbrushes.. makeup brushes.. ect.. it could lead to a sex scene.. I just want to play with other objects first.. it excites me. Hannah West ;) Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 1/17/2008 7:51:57 PM
Okay.. I'm headed back to cali to shoot some more.. I'll be pretty busy and I don't know when I'll make it back to post. Have patience and don't call me a flake.. Love to all of you Hannah West ;)
Hannah, nice pics on the Spiegler page! Hope you're doing well and having fun with the new shoots. Say hi to Joey Silvera for me. (As if he'd know who I was!)
Yes, there has been a change in agents. I am very happy to report that. You will now see me working on bigger projects. I hope you guys enjoy all the new work. I'm thrilled to be represented by him.. and I think it was a smart move. Hannah West ;)
Hannah, just saw your scene in Face Fucking, Inc. 3. Very intense. You were absolutely amazing. It looked like you really tested your limits and came out on top!!
Evil Angel apparently loves to test my limits.. you can expect more titles from them soon. The shoots in cali are going well. I am still currently in cali shooting.. and I will be here until March. I have been shooting for digital playground, evil angel, and many many more... I can never be sure about when my titles will be released.. but i will let you know any info I run across.. just check in here. Hannah West ;)
It isn't Bitchcraft, but... How about Fuck Slaves? Hannah West, Sasha Grety, Jake Malone and I are going to get filthy. And Hannah, I'm looking forward to meeting you.
You must tell us details from your scene with Annette Schwarz, Hannah. I can't wait to see it as her girl/girl scenes are usually fantastic! Just bought a new DVD featuring you Hannah. Girlgasmic from Anabolic. I'll be watching it this weeked :-) Hope your shoots are going well.
I'm not gone. I have been working hard. I just got back home to alabama. I'll get another page up as soon as I can. I'm just so frustrated with the effort I put into being kicked off. Hannah West ;)
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Posted - Feb 28 2008 : 9:10PM
Don't let those assholes kick you off. Just keep putting up pages again and again until they give up trying to boot you. If you're not violating the ToS, you have every right to use MySpace as anyone else. I don't know if the MySpace vigilante types have targeted you or you have a personal enemy with an axe to grind. Fuck them both and refuse to go anywhere. If MySpace would just take five minutes to actually investigate these bogus violation reports, they might quit losing customers to Facebook.
Hope everyone is enjoying the new flicks! More to come as of now.. I want everyone to know that Mono SUCKS!!! Don't ever drink after anyone. I know I ain't getting any kisses... so it happened somehow.. breathing in spit.. or drinking after someone. Mono feels like death. It's likely I will end up in the hospital due to deathly high tempts, an enlarged spleen, and a rotting throat. I appreciate everyones support on myspace and through emails. You guys make death feel easier. Thanks. Hannah West ;)
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Posted - Mar 25 2008 : 2:12AM
I got mono in high school and I did almost die. My health was never the same after. By eighteen I had started to show the first symptoms of MS but it wasn't diagnosed until I was thirty. Some people have theorized that there may be a link between mono and MS but it's just one of many theories about what causes it. Anyway, I hope you get better soon and that you have someone taking care of you. Mono is absolutely miserable.
