my apologies in advance for being so long winded
I first got the internet when I was twelve and from the time I got it right up to the present day a proportion of my time on the net has always been dedicated to porn. For the first few years I would look at anything I could get my hands on, back then there were no streaming videos and with a 56.6k modem even some of the pictures took an age to load up. By the time I was 16 I had pretty much looked at all the kinds of porn I could think of and every fetish availabe (though I would say the variety is so much more now).
Looking back I think that I was becoming bored with porn by the time I was 15, don't get me wrond I was still viewing it and masturbating but I was just going through the motions of horny adolescent life. I suppose many people would think that to be normal, considering that by that point the novelty of porn should have worn off. However I saw it as more than that and by the time I was 17 I felt disenchanted with porn and I eventually ended up reading more and more dirty stories (www.asstr.org and www.literotica.com both sites which I still use).
In the subsequent years I would still occaisionally watch porn especially the fetish stuff that I enjoyed but I always wanted porn more like the stories and books I read. I wanted too see porn with guys in it that don't happen to be hugely stacked muscle bound guys with 8+ inch cocks, I wanted to see porn with attractive men with average penises. I wanted to see porn with real women, you know like women that I see at uni or girls I grew up with, the women you see on the street or working in a store.
I think the mainly problem I found with porn overall was that when I watched it everything I did was purely mechanical and the resultant orgasm was adequate. I know for sure that the stories got me so much more worked up an much hornier. Though over those years the fact that I found porn less than satisfactory wasn't really a major worry in my life and I had much more important things to be getting on with than seekinng out good porn.
It wasn't until the later half of 2007 that I really started to look for some good porn, I decided that I wanted to build up a collection that I really enjoyed. It was actually a handful of amateur Australian sites that really perked my interest in porn again and I've had one month subscriptions at:
www.beautifulagony.com
www.ifeelmyself.com
www.abbywinters.com
What I found with these websites was that the material seemed very sincere and passionate, the solo and girl-girl action was mind blowing and with the confessions on beautifulagony you acknowledged the women in the clips to be real people and in a sense I had an affinity for them and I could laugh at what they said or sympathise with them and so on. Furthermore the nature of the clips/scenes made you feel that you were privy to something special and the women in them were gifting you with a view of there true sexual nature with no veils of pretense. This was definetly not something that I had been able to experience with my previous experiences with porn. The amateur nature of the sites meant that the women I saw were the kind that I had craved to see and they were women I could see myself with.
In the past month or so I've tried to find some more mainstream (in the sense that it is produced) porn so to speak and more in the film rather than clip format. I decided having read a lot of recommendations to pick up a couple of instructional films namely Bend Over Boyfriend and Tristan's Ulimate Guide to Anal Sex for Women, both films covered subjects close to my own sexual interests and aside from the fact that I found them both great vehicles for delivering sex education I also found them highly stimulating. This to me came as a suprise especially since the Ultimate Guide........ used the kind of porn stars that I had traditionally shunned away from, but the nature of the film and the way Tristan presented them and the interview with them allowed me to see them in a completely different light which in a sense allowed me to build see them as real people and to develop a sense of liking for them (which seems to be very important for me to enjoy the porn).
Having watched these I went on to watch Chemistry 2, which again used actors from the industry but again portrayed them in a light which allowed me to really love the film. I watched Pirates and although I didn't find the most sexually stimulating of porn films I found it quite funny and entertaining.
I was just wondering if anybody could recommend some good sites, DVDs or books, I'm really up for watching or reading anything so long as I think I can have the connection with those in the porn, please do bear in mind that as a student that my budget is somewhat restricted but I don't mind paying if I think it is worth it.