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| saratoga120 Senior Member 1404 Posts 5/05 |  Posted - Jun 30 2009 : 9:20PM[Link] |
| MrFuckinSunshine Member I read your blog you magnificent bastard! 274 Posts 12/05 | Posted - Jun 30 2009 : 9:54PM [Link] |
| pegpelvispete Member 286 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jun 30 2009 : 10:03PM All joking aside, I hope you get some answers. Nothing worse than not knowing what's wrong. And I'm new to this thread and probably a couple days late plus a dollar or two short on this, but in light of the birthday pictures you posted, I demand to be invited to your party next year, dammit. I play a mean game of pin the tail on the donkey. Which is totally not a euphemism. Nope, not at all. [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 2:27AM I feel like as an adult if there is something you are ashamed of admitting, then you probably shouldn't do it.. I smoke weed.. weed was in my blood.. I do not smoke all the time. I do not smoke everyday. I have never even bought weed. I don't have to.. and have vowed to never buy it. I don't know how to roll a joint or a blunt. I'm pretty much a closet smoker. I'm youthful. I'm allowed to make these fucked up choices. I tried coke when i was 14 .. thanks to my brother who's logic was "do this so you can't tell on me." It sucked. It tasted nasty. Lesson learned. I have never seen herion, meth, crack, x, or acid. I ate mushrooms twice. they worked once. I haven't been "drunk" since high school graduation. I am pretty much a lame duck, and I like me that way. So... I have never had a seizure before. Apparently afterwards, you talk "out of your head".. meaning nothing made sense. I scratched at the wall screaming a friends name. My brother found me foaming at the mouth and took me to the ER. Here's the kicker.. I did not take methadone. (I have never seen it, for the record..) but it was in my blood.. The day before .. I went to lowes to look at paint, I had lunch at a diner, I had dinner at my father's house. I went to bed. none of it makes sense. They found me behind the toilet, passed out in vomit and blood. I don't remember much about the day of the seizure. Beyond methadone, they also declared I am anemic.. and have hypokalemia.. or some shit which is basically really low potassium. I am 12 lbs underweight. and that I was going through "drug withdraws".. (methadone.. which I didn't take).. they also seem to think I have cancer. Though NOBODY was specific.. so it doesn't seem like something you should just say.. but they said it.. I am also taking antibiotics (for an infection unknown) so this road trip is now taking my ass home to get blood cultures? from a medical institute that writes the correct birthday on my wristband.... happy 22nd birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeee. This has been the scariest week of my life.. and michael jackson died :( if you had trust issues before... heighten them... I have cuts and bruises all over me (including my breasts.. and I don't remember a thing) [Link] |
| saratoga120 Senior Member 1404 Posts 5/05 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 2:32AM [Link] |
| RandomPrecision Senior Member Enjoy! 8175 Posts 3/06 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 3:20AM I don't know what to say about the other stuff but I hope it turns out not to be as serious as they thought. [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 5:31AM I think it's great you're open about what drugs you've done. It shows you have character and are very honest. Yeah I have trust issues, who doesn't these days. If you're a lame duck, I say you're one hell a hot lame duck and my movie date offer towards you still stands. I'd give you a hug if I was there next to you right now. [Link] |
| berezov Deactivated User Slayer of the Unicorn 10 Posts 12/08 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 6:45AM re. the infection unknown: yeah, well, I don't think it's much of a question what that might be..... [Link] |
| 4theheart Senior Member pornologist 3102 Posts 8/01 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 8:23AM Edited by - 4theheart on 8/12/2009 5:50:24 AM [Link] |
killbillvol69  All-Star Member ^Lucy Pinder 18634 Posts 4/08 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 12:47PM I don't mean to scare you, but this is my story of how I found out I am epileptic: One day I was out for lunch with a friend; the next thing I know I woke up in a hospital about two hours later. Apparently I went into quite a violent seizure in the restaurant, knocking over the table, etc. When I awoke, among other, smaller injuries, I had dislocated my right shoulder and I had torn the rotator cuff in my left shoulder. To this day I can't hold anything heavy above my head with my left arm. I had just turned 24. That was my first seizure, but it was by no means my last. Now I'm heavily medicated so that my seizures aren't nearly so violent, but I still have them about once a week. I'll be 33 this year. There was no methadone in my body, which is indeed strange and might very well be responsible for all of this mess; but other than that your story sounds similar to mine. I can't stress how important it would be to see a neurologist and ask about it, just to make sure. You can tell them my story if they don't feel like believing you. You can say "a friend of a friend" or "I read this somewhere" or whatever. Good luck in solving your medical mystery Hannah. [Link] |
| Cupid Stunt Senior Member Luton Piss On Watford... Tis True 1352 Posts 4/08 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 12:53PM [Link] |
| killbillvol69 All-Star Member ^Lucy Pinder 18634 Posts 4/08 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 1:03PM [edit; kinda fucked it up a bit. fixed.] Edited by - killbillvol69 on 7/1/2009 1:04:49 PM [Link] |
| Cupid Stunt Senior Member Luton Piss On Watford... Tis True 1352 Posts 4/08 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 1:10PM [Link] |
| RandomPrecision Senior Member Enjoy! 8175 Posts 3/06 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 6:53PM And finally, here's hoping that Hannah gets all the care she needs and again, hopefully, things won't be as bad as they thought at the hospital. [Link] |
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| dls4113 Member 658 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 1 2009 : 8:53PM [Link] |
| nt32 Member 49 Posts 10/08 | Posted - Jul 2 2009 : 12:22PM [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 2 2009 : 11:43PM Okay so I'm back in ATHENS... ahhh UGA... I am going to my doctor tomorrow. I'll be getting another blood test done. (anyone who has tricare knows from there they will give me a referral to see the neurologist) I'm hoping it was just the methadone that triggered it. I was talking to my mom tonight about the flashes I remember after the seizure. I don't want to remember them for different reasons, I think the culprit who somehow put methadone in my body.. was yelling at me.. I remember being almost paralyzed. I was laying on my bed staring at her. When I these flashes and visions, it's like a scary movie.. where I am standing outside of me looking at the both of us.. I can remember her yelling at me.. discussing things that nobody.. no normal person would talk about to a person in this situation.. it's so scary.. I've never seen methadone. To be quiet honest, and maybe I am just sheltered, I haven't even heard about it on the street or around college as something people take to get a high.. or whatever these people seek. I have also never heard of it related to "date rape" or poison.. which I mean technically anything would work.. but its just so unexpected. I was at my family's house after all. Tomorrow will be a week since they have found me on the floor.. This has been the darkest, haziest week of my life. I have flashes of that day that I try so hard to make sense of. I run through all the details which weren't so detailed at all.. over and over again.. trying to make sense of what happened. I'm faced battling my family who thinks I tried to OVERDOSE... For two days after that seizure I was really sleepy.. it was like a hang over without being nauseated. I just wanted to sleep. My body was sore. I had cuts and bruises. Alot of things simply don't make sense. It doesn't feel like a week has past. It feels like I just woke up two days ago.. my brain turned back on.. does any of this sound familiar to the people who have had seizures? Is that the methadone or the event? I can't wait to get around my UGA doctors. I can't wait to know 100% that this was just the methadone.. I can deal with needing to work on my potassium and calcium.. that's fine.. but not the rest. My mother thought I tried to kill myself. There were actions that took place beforehand that would make her argument logical.. but the point is, I'm entirely too vain to try to kill myself.. and its a shitty thing to have to argue about... I really appreciate you guys for the sorting and words.. it helps a lot.. [Link] |
| MrFuckinSunshine Member I read your blog you magnificent bastard! 274 Posts 12/05 | Posted - Jul 2 2009 : 11:57PM [Link] |
| pegpelvispete Member 286 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jul 3 2009 : 12:18AM I did a shit-ton of drugs and was around two shit-tons of drugs back in my Halcyon days (like, 5 years ago... but still) and I never did methadone, didn't know of anyone who did methadone, never saw methadone, never had anyone offer me methadone, never heard about anyone wanting some methadone, never heard of anyone selling methadone... so if there's some foul play involved, somebody really went out of their way to do it. Or they're a smack junkie. Chin up, kiddo. [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 3 2009 : 3:24AM I re-read my response and realize now that its pretty elusive.. SO to save face I gotta get personal it was in fact my step sister... who I remember yelling at me saying things like "This is what you get." "Why did you always leave me out? You wouldn't ever play with me." "You were the pretty one but look at you now (insert my name here)" She's a real person one I didn't "play" with very much.... for what I consider obvious reasons now An older step sister notorious for meth, x, and other drugs... If she will do that.. why is it impossible to think she couldn't get a hold of methadone? lets pretend she had nothing to do with it.. why.. at that given time... would she be standing over me yelling this? The flashes of images I speak of are things that REALLY happened.. its the fact that having a seizure and everything else limits my ability to put cards together... I can close my eyes and see her yelling at me.. with spit coming out of her mouth... I can see or feel myself looking up to her feeling paralyzed... lol this is what I meant by images... and like i said it's like I've just now came back to life.. I've been sore and tired.. I'm trying to pull all of these "details" together my mothers stand point is simple... I had just came back from the ever so evil cali.. from porn docs run a blood test and find pot (okay yeah i did that) and methadone (I automatically look like a druggie I guess) perception is a bitch so her argument is.. I went to the ever so evil cali someone laced my weed.. and drugged me the whole time... ect and maybe just maybe I was exposed to something so god awful and get home and decide to off myself.. It also doesn't help that I've been in the tedious process of writing a novel titled "I am the Circus" and when they went through my things (trying to figure out if I'm on drugs or whatever you fucked up parents do).. they found writings, very personal, deep, honest writings.. that demonstrated certain hormonal emotions (which I find normal at 22).. they were just detailed.. for god sakes it's a book about how I feel/my life.. and it's not always pretty little butterflies and roses..so the "style" just made her assume it was a possibility.. and since I have pretty much been sleeping for a week.. today was the first time I could even begin to try to explain/defend myself.. but hey go go nancy drew My step mother MADE dinner.. There were 4 people in that house.. stepmom, stepsister, father, me.. only me and my father ate I was the last one to make my plate... I didn't take methadone.. it would be in my system 52 hours.. SOMEBODY gave me that.. when I go to the doctor tomorrow and methadone isn't in my blood, the argument will either be harder or easier.. It wasn't a hallucination... so what does one do now? and I in NO way want to sound insensitive to those who have been or are suicidal.. BUT I am not among them. I am too vain. For christs sake, I had just had my hair done, nails fixed, eyebrows waxed, and I had just spent a month working my ass off.. I would at least like to wait until I'm broke, my roots are showing, and my nails chip... let a girl have some damn fun first.. jeez (The only good thing I have to say is I have a new chapter for "I am the Circus", I'm debating this part to be in the 'lion tamer' or 'clown' chapter.. if only 'I will kill that bitch' could fit in the idea) ^I am the circus (see..) Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 7/3/2009 3:53:13 AM [Link] |
| melt Pornstar Diplomat The pride of Manchester 3763 Posts 1/09 | Posted - Jul 3 2009 : 6:19AM ^ From what you have remembered thusfar it seems to me you have a valid case against the party that either spiked your food or drink and would be within your rights to lay charges. Somebody tried to do you grievous bodily harm and succeeded and they should pay for that in my humble opinion. [Link] |
| RandomPrecision Senior Member Enjoy! 8175 Posts 3/06 | Posted - Jul 3 2009 : 7:38AM You will probably never remember much about that day. Sometimes a person who has a seizure will retain bits and pieces (I remember quite a bit from one or two of mine) but if you don't remember a lot, it's probably gone for good. In the meantime, until you can see a neurologist, be especially alert for any signs of an oncoming seizure. Hopefully you won't have anymore but you have to be ready if it happens. If you start feeling really strange for no apparent reason (I will sometimes get a dizzy feeling and a chill that seems to penetrate to my bones and runs all through my body), that could be one sign. Also, sometimes you'll get an unusual smell that doesn't smell like anything else you can think of. Some people say it smells like something burning. The most common warning for an oncoming seizure, it seems, is an incredibly profound sense of Deja Vu and confusion. If you notice any of these things, you probably won't have much time if a seizure is going to happen. It could literally only be seconds. You will need to try and make sure you're somewhere where the seizure will be unlikely to cause serious injuries. I usually try to make it to my bed if I can but sometimes, I'm too confused and upset to do anything but freeze. It's also helpful if you have someone around who knows what to do. I'm trying not to write a novel here so you should look it up if you haven't and make sure if you have someone around to keep an eye on you, they know what to do and what not to do. [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 4 2009 : 3:16AM I've spent the day reading about it... on a different spin thank you Acid rain and hustler for the new releases that depict the real me (well when I didn't have highlighs).. I was happy to see unphotoshoped tits.. What c'hall doing for the fouth? I'll be at a fish fry/ pool party at my aunts.. safely located 700 miles away from step siblings.. [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 4 2009 : 8:16AM [mod edit: quote removed] Edited by - killbillvol69 on 7/4/2009 1:02:32 PM [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 2:24AM It made her laugh! Here's a picture :)  she says to send her fan mail to say thanks for not locking me in a closet Hannah West ;) Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 7/5/2009 2:25:24 AM [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 2:49AM [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 3:03AM [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 7:08AM [Link] |
| FLYGUY Senior Member Good Night and Good Hockey 1355 Posts 7/05 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 8:31AM Good Luck. [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 11:40PM OHHHH fly, you are being sarcastic! You have to be! LOL When i get on this board, my technicality, grammar, and mechanics go out the window. I think it's because I spent 3 hours a day reading or writing.. or both. I get forced into spelling and mechanics. Here, I just free write. I am a fan of dot dot dots... <-- and I just let it rip. I figured eventually someone would mock the idea of me writing a book. ( I don't know if you were just being nice, sincere, or sarcastic) .. but it made me laugh. I'm glad you brought it up though and gave me a chance to talk about it. I am very disciplined in my writing and reading. When i finally get the chance to respond to emails or chat here, I just type my little heart out and sometimes I even boycott spell check! Thanks for the compliments... and the opportunity to critic my terrible mechanics here. You made me smile. BTW.. I have taken several classes. English, creative writing, and screen writing were the only classed I ever made a perfect score. Maybe one day I will post a real peice to save face Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 7/5/2009 11:46:15 PM [Link] |
| pegpelvispete Member 286 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jul 5 2009 : 11:49PM [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 2:34AM BTW, what "action" you mentioned above do you have in mind?? [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 3:39AM that was classic!! I loved it G: good point about the writing. I just didn't want misunderstandings about my skill. One would think that I need classes by the way I write here. I was happy to clarify about how I feel when those three hours are up. Edit: Action?... hello!!!!!!!!!!! Its HEAVEN Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 7/6/2009 3:41:27 AM [Link] |
| Hot99 Member 26 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 8:55AM [Link] |
| 4theheart Senior Member pornologist 3102 Posts 8/01 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 9:08AM Edited by - 4theheart on 8/12/2009 5:50:42 AM [Link] |
| melt Pornstar Diplomat The pride of Manchester 3763 Posts 1/09 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 9:11AM [Link] |
| The Ghost of Cal Jammer Senior Member 2207 Posts 7/09 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 6:43PM [Link] |
| FLYGUY Senior Member Good Night and Good Hockey 1355 Posts 7/05 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 9:45PM [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 11:10PM I read books by choice about the brain when I was 12. My parents thought I was odd. it is still my preferred reading. Yes, I am lora on amateur allure. I'm not sure why they change names.. but they do. I must say that was a great day. It was also my first scene back. The director, ray, gets the credit for my latest photoshoot as well. He also runs pornvalleynews.com He's a really cool guy.. and a very busy one.. I am interested in watching that scene. I'm sure there was editing done.. but lets just say..... there was a time when the camera got dropped and we forgot we were working. The rest of my plans for summer? I don't know. I would like to make it to the beach one more time. I'm gearing up for school. Moving. (I don't know where exactly) I need to really push this book out. Lately, I have had a lot of unwanted distractions. I wanted to do some volunteer work in Africa, which I thought would be a possibility sooner.. but it is something that I need to postpone. and uhhhh fuck a road trip! ;) Ghost: you are very kind. Thank you for the compliments. I have found that the most frustrating part of being on film is how discredited I am. I realize people are watching sex.. but I mean more along the lines of the actual industry and co workers. This summer I came to terms with a conclusion. It doesn't matter what I am doing. If I am some glammed up model, my brain, humor, cooking skills, heart, and other talents will be discredited. If I were a doctor other things would be discredited, I would just have better street credibility. I spent a lot of time wondering if I am not the only one who has ever felt more than wanted. I'm aware there are many aspects about me.. and I am learning that the most difficult thing is evolving all those things and letting them shine out. I can only imagine how famous people feel. I'm not even sure if I have expressed this feeling as thoroughly as I feel about it.. so I will stop here.. Edited by - Hannah Westxxx on 7/6/2009 11:14:09 PM [Link] |
| 4theheart Senior Member pornologist 3102 Posts 8/01 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 11:28PM Edited by - 4theheart on 8/12/2009 5:48:40 AM [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 6 2009 : 11:33PM the slut in me always prevails!!! [Link] |
| The Ghost of Cal Jammer Senior Member 2207 Posts 7/09 | Posted - Jul 7 2009 : 3:09AM [Link] |
| Geoff777 Member 565 Posts 3/09 | Posted - Jul 7 2009 : 6:22AM Not only do we have a movie date, make a closet date as well for you and I. Which lighted closet do you want find Heaven, mine or yours. What action do you have in mind. [Link] |
| melt Pornstar Diplomat The pride of Manchester 3763 Posts 1/09 | Posted - Jul 7 2009 : 6:03PM |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 6:40PM I find it very prejudice that americans have no where to auction themselves off... [Link] |
| pegpelvispete Member 286 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 6:51PM BUT, if you're serious, I might know a guy who knows a guy... [Link] |
| Hannah Westxxx Member The classy side of shameless 506 Posts 8/07 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 6:59PM ... is that what they do? (side note www.myspace.com/reverieandchaos I really like this work!) [Link] |
| pegpelvispete Member 286 Posts 6/09 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 7:17PM Lessee... got about three fitty here. Cell phone. Keys. Pack of gum. And some chap stick and Visine, if you're interested. /reaches into couch cushions And, uh... another $0.78. A couple chip pieces. That pen I lost a few weeks ago. A letter from my insurance company. A belt (the fuck that get in there?). /looks in wallet A couple condoms, $27.00 more, some receipts, bank cards, business cards, annnnnnnnnnnd a coupon for a 3-piece and a biscuit. Do I win? [Link] |
| killbillvol69 All-Star Member ^Lucy Pinder 18634 Posts 4/08 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 7:30PM (side note what if the highest bidder is a black guy?) [Link] |
| Zoid Senior Member Boobies and Anal 2004 Posts 5/04 | Posted - Jul 9 2009 : 7:41PM [Link] |
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