I have been through some tough times and the industry has been wonderful to be there for me, when I needed them, to help me back up on my feet. They were hands that fed me, due to my own mistakes and own bad luck that they did not cause. I am sincerely thankful for that.

I hope to make it clear to everyone that the personal issues in my relationship with Mickey G are just that, personal issues between him and myself. It isn't anyone's fault for what went wrong in our relationship. Mickey is naturally dramatic and I have an anxiety disorder. We had problems and made mistakes.

People were right for not rushing to judgement on Mickey, they know Mickey like I do. Mickey served the industry for 12 years and never had a record of behaving anything less than a gentlemen.

I was uncertain about supporting to put Mickey in prison and showing people the proof they needed to make a real judgement because I know that he is in no way a danger to anyone at all, other than someone who gets involved with his "love-deprived heart," intoxicated by drugs. It's a fact, Mickey will do anything at all for love. It is a paradox that he craves it more than your normal guy. After all, Mickey has had sex with some of the most beautiful women in the world. But that is his curse. Mickey has told me about how his heart looked for love in other lands. He was over in Europe when one of his girlfriends recognized his penis in an adult film and rejected him because of it. I overheard his parents call him disgusting for being in porn. In the industry, he is haunted by the heavily limelighted marriage between he and his bi-sexual ex- wife. The relationship of many didn't work out. And he can't seem to find the true love he needs anywhere. He is cursed inside the industry and he is cursed outside the industry. This man has a situation of love deprivation and yearning for true love.

I called KSEX to report Mickey's attack on my lover and never followed up with it. I bet there are tons of girls who want to be a pornstar so badly that they would try to crush someone else to do it. Plus, it came at a time, after there were already rumors. I showed up on sets pitching a bloody fit or my eyes rolling back into my head. My skin looked like a pepperoni pizza, I was flaky and unpredictable,and probably could have used more work. And if attention is what I wanted, what better way to do it, right? Then, after reporting his actions, I don't show any proof at all. I sound like a raving lunatic on the phone to KSEX. Then, I give Mickey his passport, and I supposedly write apologizes from my known MySpace page to him and confessing to be a crackhead streetwalker (oh that was a bad boy, Mickey). I wouldn't believe me either!

Mickey knew that I was upset with him for going to jail and used Ken in order to get back into the house. Mickey asked Ken to stay with me while he was in jail, in order to keep me company. But he asked me not to have sex with him. When he returned, Mickey then encouraged Ken and I to have sex together so that I would have sex with him too (meaning Mickey). Then, Mickey became jealous because I had sex without his knowledge. Mickey called himself giving me "bear hugs" when he choked me and wrestled with me to hold me down after finding us together. He was hurting me, so I had to call police. He wouldn't stop. I was hurt that Mickey had been released from jail and didn't come back. However, I didn't know that the state filed a restraining order on my behalf and told Mickey to stay away. Mickey did not come by or call one single time for over a month. Then, he shows up yelling that it is his house and all hell breaks loose.

Ken now faces many surgeries, eye drops, ointments and doctors poking and prodding at him. This will never end for the rest of his life.

Edited by - RoxettaXXX on Jan 3 2007