I certainly have a lot of sexual experiences, including certain "rough" things, but here's the situation. I'm in my late 40s. My new girlfriend loves it really rough and wants me manhandle her from start to finish. I love it, but I am learning transitions... like, "rough blow job done....what next?". She wants to be roughly "taken" to the next thing like a smooth flow. She wants to feel completely led. She wants to feel overwhelmed and roughed up. I know how to lead, and I can do rough things, but not used to putting it all together and running it from start to finish. My sources of ideas and learning is porn and also some kinds of articles or books. I am extremely selective about articles and books, because many of them come across as endlessly preachy about consent and communication or designed for people with zero rough sex experience and so the information is worthless to me.

Some questions:

1. I'm on a porn board. I've been in the industry (not as a performer), and I've lots of sex with a lot of different women. But...I have this underdeveloped skill in leading very rough sex end to end. QUESTION 1: How rare am I? Are you like, "dude seriously you're not experienced in doing that?" Or are you like, "yeah, that's kind of a specific skill?"

2. I'm not always great as moving her smoothly.... Example, like switching from cowgirl to missionary in one roll without pulling out and re-adjusting. QUESTION 2: How do you learn that?

3. "Rough blow job done....what next?". I can pre-plan scenes in my head but need to get more ideas. Porn will help there (someone mentioned Pascal's Subsluts). QUESTION 3: Does it just take practice? Obviously, I need to move with her flow and be able to improvise

4. I feel...less manly since I am learning. Compared to other guys she's been with, I.... uh! QUESTION 4: How to talk myself out of that feeling? (If it helps, my gf and I are serious and love each other, so that's not an issue.)

5: Finally... QUESTION 5: Any other advice or experiences to share?